Secrets
Gabriel Duncan

been running since the day I was born
imagined too much scorn
I don't need your approval
this upheaval plummets down summits
like falling so hard you rub your fingers raw
trying your best to slow to a crawl
but the harder the fall
the more you are mauled
no one can call
whether heads or tails
really mattered
through scattered,
spatters of splattered matter
tatters of clothes, ropes and hos
you know this cycle's the place
we go
the tornado it tears and rips the soul
the falls so long it snaps and breaks your toes
your body slaps the ground so hard
scars along the arms are
barely healed
so straight it makes you wonder
loving life after loving death seemed the logical step
what next? what happens after this?
life was the class I wasn't stopping to miss
never slid the blade along my veins
or popped more pills to stop the pain
it's the bodily damage that I claim
just one rape, and a lifetime of fear
brought me on the the doorstep of hell
but I still brought it back here
flagrant distaste for anyone who's in my face
never knew about race
but now I notice, I never noticed it was mace
the hatred I faced was because I suck the face
of the same gender, family member of the human race
like I've never seen a gun pointed my way before
like I've never run away from cops
while they're knocking down the door
like I've never sold drugs either
or schemed to get more ether
if I could make this any briefer
it shouldn't make you wonder
why I spend so much time behind the page
why I say it's hard to live the straight life
when you ask me why
I tell you my blood itches
and I can't sleep at night
and I reply that I can't decide
if it's the blight or just stitches
it's shouldn't make you wonder
why nihilists don't dream
it's seems these obscenities
are a means of catharsis
unrhyming poems are for professional artists
got differents parts that never made this
like addictions to sex, weed and being publicly obscene
roasting buildings, and toasting marshmellows on the scenes
as much as it seems I've been rehabilitated
I'm saying right now, some shit didn't make this